My Absent Excuse

Been a while since last I blogged. It has been a difficult time with Matt lately. The fact that he is just four months shy of being 18 does nothing to help the situation at all. Then add in the anti-psychotic meds, that even though we see some improvement with those the side effects aren't nice..
Then Kenny was told he would need two more surgeries. He is out of pain meds and all we have done is yell at each other for about a week now.. ohh good time huh?
Mandy is doing good. She marched in the Veteran's Day Parade yesterday. Yah!!

Another Day

Another day is here. I have been having trouble sleeping at night again. It  normally  only happens in the Spring and Summer. In the Fall and Winter I don't normally have trouble sleeping. I know that  part of it is stress.  Hardly no income coming in and bills still to pay. I have to say though I am am a lot better off than most. At least for the time being I don't have to worry about a house payment/rent. The van is tore up but I am sure something will work out, somehow. 

Another day

I am glad that I live in the northern part of Georgia. I feel so sorry for those that lost everything in the floods last week. I think I heard that it the worse floods in 100's of years. What a way to end the drought that we have had for years huh?
I have been reading the Jazz Parks series by Jennifer Rardin. I just finished the 3rd book Bitting the Bullet. They seem to be getting better. I don't like the series as well as some of my faves but I am enjoying them.

Jealous Feelings of Envy

Do you ever find yourself feeling a little bit jealous of someone that you love? The fact that you envy something they have/done makes you a little mad yourself and that doesn't help the whole situation either. You want that person to succeed and do well and have all the things that need/want.. and yet there is a that little bit of twinge that is just enough to make you feel like somehow along the path to where you both are now that you have been slighted somewhat by fate. The fact that you feel that way makes you feel sooooo guilty. What do you do when you feel that way?

Good Morning

It's another Monday. Today is Labor Day so that means no school for the kids. Matt is still at his friend's house. Mandy is off on the pc in the living room. Kenny is outside and here I sit in my room. I can't wait for the doctor's office to open in the morning. I have been on this current period for a month now. I am tired of it. I have cramps from hell and after a while it just get plain icky and I am soooo over it.
I read Destiny Kills by Keri Arthur last night. I thought the beginning was really great and then a little after mid way through it kinda lost part of my attention I found myself skimming on a couple of the pages. It was okay but not what I use to from Keri Arthur.
The cats are out of food. So off I go to get more kitty food..

Matt and Mandy

I was reading the post with the info about my kids and I thought I should update it some. Matt is now 17. In another six months my boy will be consider an adult. That scares the crap out of me. I love my son. There is not a day that goes by that I am not thankful for both of my children. Matt has grown so much as a person. In Feb he had what I liked to refer as an "episode". He went bat shit crazy on me and ended up spending some time in a place called Laurel Wood. He is currently seeing a doctor and take medication that seems to help and they are sending to three more doctors to see if they can help him even more. So far he is willing to cooperate.
Mandy is now 15 and ready to get her learner license. She is doing good in school. She does well on everything but taking tests. Always been that way. She is in JROTC and loves it. She is a teen leader with 4-H. She is also in the Color Guard. She lost 30 pounds over the Summer. She has always been beautiful but she is really coming into her own now.
Well that is it for now.

Feel Horrid Again

I woke up this morning feeling like the floorboard of a taxi cab on New Year's Eve. I don't think there is a part of me that does not hurt or ache. I have felt this way for far too long for it not to be something wrong. So, Tuesday I am gonna break down and call the doctor cause it is to the point where I can not take anymore.